when i feel like someone doesn't care, i pull away and close up.

i'm human. i have feelings. i react in certain ways b/c of what i've been through. how i've been treated. how i had the shit beat out of me for years. i wasn't allowed to have emotions. i was never allowed to show them.

that hasn't changed. so i pull away. close up. i doubt i'll ever be comfortable showing my emotions.

so when i hurt. i won't show you.

when someone makes me feel like they don't care. i won't show it.

but you'll know.