today is fantastic b/c it is my mom's birthday! i got to spend time with my family and we ate a delicious dinner. although i don't get to spend as much time with them as i'd like, i really cherish the moments i have with them. my mom is incredible. i have realized, even though she may not accept my life and my future goals, she loves me in her own way - the best way she knows how. even when she isn't crazy about something, she still supports me in her own manner. without her, i wouldn't have so many opportunities and for that i couldn't be more thankful.

Happy Birthday Momma Bear!!! I love you so much. :)

i'm tryin' this out. let's see how long it lasts.

for the first ever (and potentially last) moe monday:

i sweat moe because....she still sleeps with a stuffed animal.

millions of blogs have reported by now, but i needed to post for my own personal documentation. for me. for tomorrow. when i wake up and realize "this time yesterday..." michael jackson was still with us. this is huge. i was talking to clare recently about how i can't even imagine what it will be like when icons of my generation start to pass away. my specific example was morgan freeman. - what will those movies be like without his voice? i'm completely convinced that some movies are just MADE for his voice. but michael jackson. really? i don't believe it. it's so surreal. there's nothing else that can be said, i'm completely shocked. may his legacy live on for the younger generations to enjoy!

as soon as i heard that farrah fawcett had passed away i picked up the phone and called my mom for 2 reasons. the most important reason, to tell her i love her and secondly to see if she had heard. farrah truly was an icon from the 70s and it's hard to believe that she was just diagnosed in 2006 and lost her battle less than three years later. her son, redmond, will never be able to pick up the phone to call his mom again. that breaks my heart, but i take full advantage of calling my mom numerous times a day. (on busy days like today she could probably do without all my phone calls). but you never know when it may be the last.

I LOVE YOU MOM!

today is beautiful because morgan and jesus can decopage together. ahhh sweet jesus and his crafts.



me and jesus play hockey together.

i've been distracted from blogging as application obligations have consumed me.
tomorrow is a day for fun though. a day for clare and me. a day of baseball.
we're such lesbians!

on another note. i spent 2 hours in home depot today (again, such a lesbian), ordering countertops for the kitchen remodel, purchasing ceiling fans, an amazing granite sink, and searching for the perfect lawn chairs for the two of us to read in the sun. correction - for me to read in the sun, for clare to sleep. ;)

as i was walking into home depot i saw a lady with her two kids. the little girl jumped to the side of a white puddle, whining "eeeeeew!" her mom said "what's wrong with you? it's just paint." the little girl replied, "i thought it was something else." her little brother chimed in with "i thought it was..." the mother said, "what did you think it was, child?"

without skipping a beat he said, "DOG POOP!"

ah to be 3 years old again. looking for any excuse to yell dog poop.

This is fantastic. I'm pretty sure I would have died.

Today, I had to give a presentation about Adolf Hitler. I wanted to point out he was a very good speaker, and could incite a crowd. Instead, what came out was 'Hitler's oral skills made everyone go wild with excitement" FML

it's your choice.

this has to be a quick blog b/c i'm having dinner with my dad very soon, BUT i came across the coolest site today. first of all, if you're on facebook and you haven't dipped into the Farm Town application game - DON'T DO IT! seriously, it will suck you in. i'm addicted. and i made fun of clare for playing it. yep.

so part of the game is to "hire" another farmer to harvest your crops. so i did. like i've done everyday for the past week since i've become brainwashed by this game. and i was snoopin around at that farmer's farm while she worked and she advertised this site:

Legends of America

Stay with me people. This site is amazing. Seriously, check it out. She is a huge history buff. I'm a history nerd myself. I can't spout of dates or lots of important info, but i LOVE traveling to historical places. This site has it all - like if I'm gonna be traveling to a destination, i can look to see if anything historical is nearby OR i could just plan an entire trip to travel to certain areas that sound interesting. I'd love to go into more detail and ramble on (b/c quite frankly, i'm good at rambling) but my dad just arrived.

your homework for the day - check out the website.

my summer classes started today and i shouldn't be the only one with homework. ENJOY!

summer class starts tomorrow, and i'm not ready to give up my summer-ness! :(

i just wanna do work around the house, continue to work on my scrapbook, and READ! have i mentioned how addicted i am to the book i'm reading right now? i don't wanna put it down. i wish i had this book when i went to hawaii b/c i could've read it on the flight. instead, i picked the slowest reading one i could get my hands on.

usually i can't stand not finishing something i start, but i just couldn't continue with the book i was attempting to read. it was sooo slow, nothing was happening, i was bored out of my mind. so finally, i decided to retire it and head to the book section of target where i found a book i had forgotten was on my reading list.

we are watching game 1 of the college softball world series finals. washington is up 8-0 over florida. i'm impressed! especially with the pitcher. she's incredible. clare is jealous! lol :)

off to bed. school in the A.M. blah.

my heart just dropped into my stomach. it's here. it's time. i have been waiting 2 years for this, but i can't believe it's actually here. i'm so nervous! vet school applications open June 3rd. As in...in 2 days my life won't stop for 4 months. I'm going to be so busy and stressed and exhausted.

i just went to the website, b/c i have been checking it daily for updates, and the date has finally been posted. June 3rd.

I'M SO NERVOUS!!!

i'm so excited for this weekend! clare and i are going to a baseball game. we went out of town last month to the aquarium and had the best time. i'm looking forward to this experience as well. i have tried blogging from my blackberry when away from the computer, but those attempts have been unsuccessful. idk why they didn't post, but it's irritating! this explains the gap in blogging.

on another note, i could go without the "adam lambert - is he gay?" nonsense. am i the only one who really doesn't care? why does it matter if he is gay or not? who cares people?!

well let's get it over with, before i'm next. i'm gay.

i've been glued to the tv for the past 3 days, watching the NCAA softball world series. florida plays in 30 minutes - woot woot go gators! however, washington is playing georgia right now, and i'm not complaining...lol. just sayin!

was anyone else caught off guard by nigel lythgoe's comments on so you think you can dance this week? i'm not one that is ready to picket every 5 minutes, claiming discrimination. but i was a little offended by his comments regarding the male ballroom dancing duo. E! online posted this story, summarizing what was said by lythgoe:




SYTYCD 's Nigel Lythgoe Tweets Off Against GLAAD's "Homophobic" Accusation
Fri., May. 22, 2009 1:45 PM PDT by NATALIE ABRAMS


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The brains behind the feet of So You Think You Can Dance are trying to fight back after coming under attack over some allegedly homophobic comments.

GLAAD was on the warpath today after remarks made by show mastermind and judge Nigel Lythgoe toward same-sex dance duo Misha Belfer and Mitchel Kibel in last night's premiere.

"I think you probably alienate a lot of our audience," he said after the duo's samba. "I mean, we've always had the guys dance together on the show, but they've never really done it in each other's arms before.

"Do you know what? I'd like to see you both dancing with a girl."

Nigel continued his tirade online, saying, "The same-sex ballroom guys did remind me of Blades of Glory. However, I'm not a fan of Brokeback ballroom."

GLAAD and Nigel have only been escalating from there...

"It's unacceptable for this kind of blatant homophobia to occur," GLAAD President Neil G. Giuliano said in a statement. "Fox Entertainment and Nigel Lythgoe owe Misha, Mitchel and the whole LGBT community an apology."

Nigel responded via Twitter: "I am very sad the word 'homophobe' is being used. That is someone who hates homosexuals. I dislike effeminate dancing! Wake up and listen!"

GLAAD is now asking the gay community and fans of the show to fire back by emailing and calling Fox to get Nigel to apologize for his comments.

Producers of the show issued this statement about the situation: "The judges of So You Think You Can Dance critique auditioners and contestants on their overall performance, stage presence, technique and a wide range of characteristics. All dancers are aware when they audition they will be subject to the judges' opinions. We apologize if any viewers were offended by their remarks."

i know everyone has their own opinions. but i believe it's important, in everyday life -- not just on tv, to be aware of HOW you say things in attempt to not offend others. i have lots of opinions. but they could be offensive if said different ways. it's a respect issue, people.

lythgoe has recently issued an apology to glaad, saying:

"I sincerely regret the fact that I have upset people with the poor word choices and comments I made both during the taping of the So You Think You Can Dance audition and on my personal status update," said Lythgoe. "I am not homophobic and it was extremely upsetting for me to be classed as such."

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ryan, 23 year old female, with cerebral palsy. ryan is as social as they come. and although she is 23 she stands about 5 foot tall with a thin frame, built like a 5th grader. in addition to having cerebral palsy, ryan is legally blind. but this doesn't stop her from having one of the most beautiful smiles and amazing personalities. i held ryan on a horse today as she practiced motor skills - using language to get the horse to go and stop, muscle direction pulling on the reins to turn the horse, and balance as she lifter herself onto and off of the horse. within 15 minutes she grabbed my heart and will never let go...as she stood next to me on the mounting dock and grabbed my hand in anticipation for her assigned horse for the lesson - patton - to arrive in front of her. i don't think a smile left my face for the next hour as she told me how great she was doing, and laughed at little things she said. she was adorable and i can only hope that my path will cross with other people like ryan...if i could only be so lucky. i consider myself extremely blessed to have had the opportunity of spending just 1 hour with her.

it's moments like these that make me further realize how precious life is and how a simple smile can change your day!

i've been gone for a while as i just got home from spending a week in hawaii. it was gorgeous, fabulous, and served as a much needed vacation. however, my first post back is not about my vacation, it's to support my friend, heather, in her quest for a job with Murphy-Goode Winery. she submitted this video:



and needs your vote! click on this link, find her video, and select it as your favorite! i know this would be a fantastic opportunity for heather, and an incredible experience for murphy-goode to have her as part of their company. good luck, heather!!

i scored a 98% on my organic chemistry final.

i'm still in shock.

i couldn't be more excited that this semester is over!

i'm leaving for hawaii on monday and i'm so nervous.

i will be halfway around the world from my gf.

that makes me terribly sad.

and i'll be enduring the 11 hour nonstop flight solo as i'm meeting my friends there.

WHAT. AM. I. GONNA. DO???

how am i gonna survive a flight that long? by myself?

i'm not ready for this final.

i'm convinced that i could study for months and still not be ready.

it sucks that everything i have worked for comes down to this one test.

i've had a horrible day.

i have a lot on my mind.

i need to get away.

it would be wonderful to go to sleep and not wake up for a while.

i can't even begin to express how much i want tuesday to be over with.

this semester has been hell!

today has been such a long day, tonight will be even longer.

biggest final of my life tomorrow.

ridiculous final tuesday at noon.

then i have some freedom.

when i feel like someone doesn't care, i pull away and close up.

i'm human. i have feelings. i react in certain ways b/c of what i've been through. how i've been treated. how i had the shit beat out of me for years. i wasn't allowed to have emotions. i was never allowed to show them.

that hasn't changed. so i pull away. close up. i doubt i'll ever be comfortable showing my emotions.

so when i hurt. i won't show you.

when someone makes me feel like they don't care. i won't show it.

but you'll know.

it's official. i'm starting the "clare-isms" entries. she is on the phone with her mom and just said they served "jon bolie" at work yesterday. i said, "jambalaya??!!"

when you spend almost all day, every day with someone, it's hard to be apart. this week has been difficult. clare has been working long hours and i have been studying non-stop for this damn organic chem final. but at the end of the day we came home to each other.

however tomorrow will be different. she will leave at 5am to go to work and i won't get to see her until monday after my final. that's going to seem like forever. i've never wanted a semester to be over more than this semester. it has been ridiculously intense.

watching Notorious with Clare. No, I'm not kidding.

I promised her I would watch it with her. She wanted to see it when it was in the theatre. I compromised and grabbed it at Redbox.



it's interesting, to say the least. does this mean i'm not gangsta?

next week will mark the 3 year anniversary living in my house. when i was moving in i had tv fairy tale dreams of having awesome neighbors, walking through a safe neighborhood, letting the pup outback to frolic in the yard, sitting outside sippin lemonade while enjoying the peaceful evenings...warm fuzzy feelings. my house was my project. i gutted it, had all new floors installed, painted every wall to the colors i wanted, new appliances, new landscaping - the whole shebang. besides my dog and my gf, it's my baby. i love it. there's just one problem. JODIE FOSTER. (the neighbor to the right of me). for the most part, i never see my other neighbors. there is a foreign man that lives 2 houses down from me who has tried to run over me twice but other than that, our paths rarely ever cross. but jodie is a different story. i share a property line with this woman and she is heinous if i'm being polite.

i call her jodie foster because the first month, i was in and out of the hospital and my parents spent most of their time at my house doing yard work, etc. while in the yard, my dad (the world's shyest man) would get approached by "jodie" and apparently she carried on long personal conversations with him on several occasions. and when i say personal, i mean she told my dad she was a lesbian who met her partner at a university near my parents house and they live together. "oh a lesbian? sweet!" ...i thought...

you know how you will lock eyes with another suspected lesbian somewhere and you may share a glance or smile like a secret handshake in the homo sorority sisterhood. i thought it was great to have a lesbian neighbor. except, in the 3 years that i have lived here, "jodie" has said 2 sentences to me. once was a forced to be polite sentence while her dad was helping her trim trees in the back, "i may have dropped a limb over your fence into the backyard, i'm sorry. if you wanna just throw it back over we'll put it on the curb." i said "oh i'm sure my dog thinks God himself just threw her a toy from the sky. i don't mind at all, thanks. her dad smiled a genuine smile, as if he were in agreement and they carried on to the curb (limb stacks in hand). this was last summer. 2 years after i moved in. it took her 2 years to say something to me.

also, i have only seen her suspected "partner" at her house a handful of times. used to her "partner" would be there maybe once a week. i thought maybe she traveled and it kept her away from home often. then almost a year went by and her partner had not been seen until last weekend while C and i were walkin' the pup, we came home and they were standing in jodie's yard. the suspected partner waved and said "hey how are you?" jodie shot her a hateful look. C and i waved back and we both replied "good, how are you" and kept walking.

the other time jodie spoke to me, was when she showed up on my door step during a snow storm and bitched about C's car being parked in front of her house. my first thought was, "what's the problem, Ms. Personality? having lots of friends over?" she never has people over. ever. and i think it's obvious why the woman tends to spend all her time alone in her yard. she hates people. everyone except my stepdad apparently lol.

jodie takes great pride in her yard/landscaping. as she should - her yard looks incredible. but keep in mind...we share a property line. which means if i don't mow in the exact pattern she does with the same blade setting, it throws off her entire masterpiece completely. apparently. there is a tricky part between our houses where i have to "scoop" the lawn mower around a bush...it totally messes up the straight line formation she has going and the "scoop" (half-circle-like) crosses her property line. but there are 2 options here. i could mow the scoop and cross her line or i could be a dick and only mow TO the bush and assume she will take it from there. so today i did the scoop.

she comes home in the middle of my mowing, gets out of her car, walks out of the garage, across the yard and looks in the direction of "the scoop." i look at her, she throws her traditional hateful look my way, and shakes her head as if she is annoyed with something.

the woman is impossible. i have never encountered someone who was anymore determined to dislike people more than "jodie." i said to C, after we waved and spoke to the "partner" last weekend, "i really truly believe it would kill that woman to smile and fake being nice to someone." i totally think it would. how sad.

i sleep better when she's here. it's true. she is sleeping soundly b/c work starts at 5am tomorrow. another long day, where i'll be stuck studying and she'll be working 12-14 hours. i'm not excited about it at all. but hopefully this weekend will pass fast, work will go well for her, studying will be worth it for me, and i can get past these two finals successfully...i only have 6 days off until my summer class starts and we're gonna make the most of it. this summer will be busy - class, voluteer with several organizations, study for entrance exam, application cycle begins, then fall classes start. i can't even imagine what it will be like. but i do know that as long as she is here, everything will be wonderful. :)

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i can't fall asleep, and it's driving me crazy. i can't get comfortable. i can't get the fan angled right. i'm either too hot or too cold. the problem is, i'm beyond exhausted. i don't want to sleep all day tomorrow. i can't sleep all day tomorrow. i wake up early no matter what and tomorrow is a huge study day for me. i have been trying to fall asleep for 2 hours and i don't want to resort to sleeping aids. i hate how insomnia takes over during finals; the time that sleep is even more crucial. ugh.

i have picked up a guitar hundreds of times, tried to arrange my fingers in some way on the fretboard to make a pleasing sound, and in turn it equaled the pleasantness of a goat in distress. i thought that instrument would be impossible. but i wanted more than anything to learn how to play... i grew up playing the violin, cello, and piano. string instruments were my thing. so why couldn't the guitar? why did the guitar have 500 different chords to learn and 500 more strumming patterns to choose from? and changing from chords to chords, are you kidding me? i thought it would never happen. but for christmas i got a really good guitar. a taylor 114ce acoustic/electric. it's beautiful and sounds incredible. and damn it, i was determined to learn this beast. for the past 4 months i have taken a class at school and learned some of the basics. however the professor wasn't very good, he tended to be more discouraging than anything. the beginning was the worst. how the strings would cause extreme pain to my fingers (until callouses formed) and the awkwardness on spacing my fingers for various chords. but yesterday i realized, as i struggled with transitions between new chords, that i have come a long way. i can play several songs, i know A TON of chords (majors, minors, and dominants). i signed up for private lessons with a music store next door to me to continue now that this class has ended. and even though my transitions are rough with some chords still and i don't know everything about the guitar just yet, i'm on my way. and now i don't have to feel intimidated to go into a guitar store. :)

sometimes i talk a lot. A LOT. when i'm passionate about something, take a seat. or run for the door. because it could be a while. the problem is, somedays i want to post multiple blogs. but how many is too many? let's not get into overkill. other days i'm silent. perhaps i find myself in a momentary state of being pensive. thinking about things. life. life is huge. it's so much bigger than us. think about it. clare and i went to a nearby park yesterday. we walked a few trails, hiked as far as we could go in flip flops, walked along the creek bead and through a few small waterfalls. it was a amazing. nature is beautiful. i read through blogs a lot. i get lost in the linkage - from blog to blog to blog. people are so interesting. their lives...so interesting! what they're going through, where they travel, what they do on a day to day basis. i came across an entry this evening where someone spoke about the importance of living "greener" now. that they had never really considered it's importance until they had children. then they became aware...what we do now will affect the world their children will live in as adults. that's a scary thought. that really made me stop and think. i have bought my reusable grocery bags and try to use them every time i pick up something at the store.



but there's so much more i need to do for the environment. one day i hope to have kids. and i not only want them to have the opportunities i had and live the way i lived...i want them to have more. i want their lives to be even better. but not just dealing with the environment. but with school too. another blog i crossed wrote about recent suicides of 11 yr olds for teasing and bullying. this breaks my heart into millions of pieces. to think that kids as young as 11 (and even younger) are being treated this way and made to feel so horrible about themselves that they take their own lives. that's is devastating. after reading through that particular entry i was reminded of a little boy, whose story touched my heart a year ago...Lawrence King.



He couldn't be any cuter. Lawrence was a 15 yr old who was murdered AT SCHOOL last february after publicly saying he was gay and had asked a 14 yr old male classmate to be his valentine. how tragic! it scares me. if i had to go back to high school now, i don't think i could do it. i felt so safe while i was in high school. but i wouldn't now. i don't want my children to fear school. i want them to feel safe there, and enjoy going. even if they don't particularly love the schoolwork aspect (not every kid will - i can't force that) but i don't want them to feel like school is a dangerous place. and i certainly don't think a child should ever fear (or be discouraged from) being who they truly are.

1. What color is your toothbrush? silver...chrome, if you will

2. Name one person who made you smile today? clare, definitely

3. What were you doing at 8 am today? cuddling and stuff. you know.

4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago? you know.

5. What is your favorite candy bar? the kind with no calories but are so good they taste like crack cocaine...these don't exist? then i don't like candy bars.

6. Have you ever been to a strip club? i founded strip clubs.

7. What is the last thing you said aloud? i worked 5th and broadway last night, tonight i'm takin' ormsby.

8. What is your favorite ice cream flavor? sweet marsala, or pinot grigio on long days

9. What was the last thing you had to drink? beer #7

10. Do you like your wallet? i'm pretty much in love with it. we cuddle and stuff.

11, What was the last thing you ate? this is probably really personal and inappropriate, but strawberry yogurt.

12, Have you bought any new clothing items this week? tassels.

13, The last sporting event you watched? oil wrestling at some sorority house

14, What is your favorite flavor of popcorn? the jelly belly jelly bean flavor

15, Who is the last person you sent a text message to? Baby Jesus

16, Ever go camping? Once, then my mom made me come inside around 10pm.

17, Do you take vitamins daily? only when my ADHD is off the hook

18, Do you give to church/charity? why do you think i founded strip clubs?

19, Do you have a tan? farmer's tan

20. Do you prefer Chinese food over pizza? i prefer them separately...not one on top of the other.

21. Do you drink your soda with a straw? sho nuff

22. What did your last text message say? that's between me and baby j

23. What are you doing tomorrow? studying for my ochem final

25. Look to your left, what do you see? my gf and she's beeeeeutiful

26. What color is your watch? cadillac chrome

27. What do you think of when you hear Australia? steve irwin, rip

29. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru? eh whatevs

30. What is your favorite number? 3.14159

31. Who's the last person you talked to on the phone? eh i dunno

32. Any plans today? pretty sure i already answered this...is this a consistency test?

33. How many states have you lived in? i transition between several mental states from time to time...this current one is suiting me well so far.

34. Biggest annoyance right now? organic chemistry

35, Last song listened to. my short term memory is awesome. can't remember.

36, Can you say the alphabet backwards? i learned a few social skills from college...this is a pretty popular party trick.

37, Do you have a maid service clean your house? clare likes to play dress up. i'm a fan of the costume.

38, Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time? flops

39, Are you jealous of anyone? myself

40, Is anyone jealous of you? me

41, Do you love anyone? myself. and clare. and riley. and my family. ok i have a list.

42, Do any of your friends have children? probably

43, What do you usually do during the day? critique movies

44, Do you hate anyone that you know right now? i tend to hate people i don't know..that works out well.

45, Do you use the word 'hello' daily? i don't pay too much attention to what i say daily.

46, What color is your car? black

47, Do you like cats? as long as they aren't peeing on my stuff

48. Are you thinking about someone right now? sure am, she's sitting next to me

49, Have you ever been to Six Flags? i live 5 miles from six flags. it's not my top priority every summer.

50, How did you get your worst scar? skin biopsies. at 25. this isn't looking good for longevity.

I haven't slept in two weeks. Between studying for four exams and finals this week and traveling all over two states for various obligations...all I wanted was a day where I didn't have to beat the sun up to be somewhere. I almost got that. If only bambi had decided to enter the streets of downtown an hour earlier. I had to be at the zoo early this morning, as I do every Sunday. But I REALLY wanted to stay in bed and not leave my gf this morning. I get to the zoo, I treat the cat in isolation, I start to scrub a cage to disinfect in prep for the vampire bats coming in, and we got a call that a deer had made its way to one of the busiest restaurant and shopping districts in the city. The vet had to be called in and the hospital supervisor had to ride along to make sure the deer was returned to a safe place and no one got hurt. I was free to go home! I got Clare and the pup out of bed and now ill be enjoying my day with them. Starting with breakfast and guitar hero, of course. :)
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i think those pills are called sedatives.

...i don't know if i would take the pill. the thought that something could erase something from my brain is pretty scary. my first hesitation would be taking such a powerful pill. beyond that i don't know how i'd feel of permanently removing a memory. we all have a past. we all have traumatic events that affected our lives. and although i can't STAND when people say "everything that has happened has created who i am," to some degree it's true. there are things i wish didn't happen and have negatively affected who i am. but if those events were erased from my mind, how would that change me now? i have made it through those times and am trying to continue putting one positive foot in front of the other to advance in life. but permanent deletion of something just freaks me out.

choc pb oatmeal cookies are my favorite. but i can't make them. i'm horrible at them. i know these are these are known to many as the "cookies for dummies" but i suck at them. i will stand side by side with someone and follow exactly what they do and they will never become "matte" and firm. mine remain shiny and fudgy. i'll read tips all over the internet for how to remedy this situation and i STILL can't do it. so clare is attempting them. apparently she is the baker and i'm the cook. so this is the recipe we're following. it's from the food network, which is a fabulous source. thought i'd share:


Ingredients
2 cups sugar
4 tablespoons cocoa
1 stick butter
1/2 cup milk
1 cup peanut butter
1 tablespoon vanilla
3 cups oatmeal
Waxed paper


Directions
In a heavy saucepan bring to a boil, the sugar, cocoa, butter and milk. Let boil for 1 minute then add peanut butter, vanilla and oatmeal. On a sheet of waxed paper, drop mixture by the teaspoonfuls, until cooled and hardened.

After 5 days of not seeing my wonderful gf due to studying, we are finally catching up on some qt!! Clare picked the movie for tonight...Red Dragon. I know I'm 7 years behind, as the movie came out in 2002 and I have yet to see it. But I'm on a "thriller/scary" movie kick so I'm down for any of em. We will see how this goes. :)
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i used to be an avid blogger, but then i got away from it. i am now dedicated (again) to blogging. but sometimes it's difficult. i don't want to go through the dry times where i post 20 blogs in 2 weeks then 0 blogs for 4 days (unless of course im banging my head against the wall b/c this organic chemistry final could possibly be the death of me). at times i have noticed some of my professional blogger/writer friends encounter writer's block. even my most creative friends (heather) admit to experiencing this. perhaps random suggestions from prompt generators likeimagination prompt generator or mind bump would help. this is the prompt i found at mind bump today.

“Select a random word from the dictionary that you do not know, look up the meaning, and use it in your blog post.”


i'm all about expanding my vocabulary. i might have to try it out.

"vy-annie sausages" are vienna sausages. and clare's niece is not down for sharing hers with me.

literally.  i had my ass handed to me today on 2 exams.  organic chemistry hates me.  and these aren't even finals.  no no.  finals start next week.  i have 2 more exams this week, a final next week and the biggest final of my life in two weeks from today.  whoever decided that the organic chemistry 2 final should be over BOTH semesters (organic 1 and organic 2) is an asshole.  

im starting over with blogging.  from scratch.  apparently my personal blog for the past 3 years (inmyflops) was deleted recently and i lost everything.  but i actually don't mind it.  i was sad to discover that when i typed in the address, it sent me to "godaddy" but to be honest, this is probably the best thing to happen.  although i miss my popular posts regarding flip flops and rainbow sandals, but now i don't have to sift through those traumatic past-relationships posts that were keeping me from the blog for quite some time.  this made me put forth the effort to start up a new blog and i didn't have to worry about having to go in and edit my template to erase old photos, comments, etc.  i've never blogged on blogger before.  so this is new to me, and it's taking some getting used to.  but i'm starting to see how user friendly it really is.  i was a "wordpress" girl before, but after my other blog mysteriously vanished, i decided to jump ship and try something different.  so here i am blogging world.  i'm throwin' myself in your face with the random stuff i feel like rambling about from time to time.  but no worries, i promise to keep my clothes on.

You're lookin at perfection folks. Finals time brings out a lot of my perfections...in the form of distractions. Like making perfectly edged pancakes at 4 in the afternoon instead of studying organic chemistry. Or doing ALL of my laundry in one day, including folding AND putting it away. Or cleaning out closets that haven't been touched in years. Point is, my house is so organized. My organic skills, aren't.
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This is what Riley does while I study. 
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I just set up blogger on my blackberry. This is fantastic! Bloggin has never been so easy!

my entire school semester is difficult.  but finals time is the WORST of the worst.  i hate this time (twice) a year.  i have to lock myself in the house, try to avoid too many distractions, focus, and kick my ass with studying.  but this all comes with major sacrifices.  the biggest sacrifice is missing my gf terribly.  i won't get to see her much over the next few weeks and i hate it.  it's hard for me to let her go when she's here.  however, i love being with her so much, that the last thing i want to do, when she's here, is study.  the other sacrifices include social events like "thunder" and derby parties.  i'd love to go to thunder this year.  i had planned on it.  but that was all ruined the first day of class when i received my syllabi with exam dates.  so this weekend while everyone is enjoying the beautiful weather, delicious drinks, and awesome fireworks, i'll be fighting back tears at home alone, studying my heart out for organ

i love reading.  it’s my favorite thing.  i wish i could get paid to read non-stop.  so i’ve decided to make a list of my favorite books.  

to kill a mockingbird
i know why the caged bird sings
harry potter and the goblet of fire
the great gatsby
watership down
running with scissors
dry
possible side effects
magical thinking
where are the children
weep no more my lady
all through the night
all around the town
the outsiders
a walk to remember
the notebook

…you are my last, you are my first…

 

i love you.  with everything i have.  everything i am.  i love you

my life is complete now that i’ve found you.  thank you for being you.  thank you for holding my heart the way you do.  thank you for everything.  but most importantly, thank you for coming into my life.  you mean the world to me.  you are my everything.  i love you.  :)